I want to make one thing clear as to why I’ve dug up memories of my 1st heartbreak and shared it with all of you. I shared it because I hope that it helps some of you by realizing that you’re not the 1st or last person to experience pain and also that it does eventually get better even if it does take you a long time to burn that damn bridge especially if people want to be “friends” let me give you a clue, burn that bridge if you or the other person are still attached emotionally! You will never be able to be friends (at least I wasn’t) without getting pissed off or feeling used.
Also your best friend is essentially time even if it’s the most annoying thing to hear from people it’s true! You’ll have moments where the memories and the nostalgia makes you tear up or collapse in tears, tears for something you wont relive or just tears for yourself, or at least that’s what I felt. I however never felt hate, for that I am grateful for. I could feel disappointed but never hate because I preferred knowing and experiencing the pain in that moment instead of later once more memories and attachments were implemented. Also, it’s completely normal to experience at least one heartbreak if anything for the sheer realization that you’re kind of a bad ass for still being able to pull yourself together enough to slap on some make up and eventually laugh at the situation and find a future and a present worth experiencing.
Plus it’s nice to know that even when one experiences pain, you still feel that hope and excitement when something good happens. After break ups being able to enjoy the company of like minded individuals is amazing and can add a much needed silver lining to ones life. 🙂 So let the tears out now, feel all those desperate emotions and don’t be surprised to feel them come back every now in again but just know that it’s going to be okay.
Also dating can be fun again, dating just to date without feeling like it needs to turn into more than just a dinner, conversation or coffee can be fun if only to laugh at the ridiculousness later (oh, I’ve got some winners).
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